Wednesday, 22 February 2012

Immaculate levels of stress

Hello. I sort of don't want to be the kind of person who says LOOK AT ME, HERE I AM but at the same time I've been updating this blog with the kind of regularity that old-time Dotfans will have been barely able to believe and I suppose I just wanted to give people a heads-up that this may not be the case for a while.

Basically, there's a lot of stuff going on in my life at the moment. Some of it is nice things and the sort of stuff that if I were talking to you I would probably point upwards to indicate their positive aspect. Others are horrible things which are making me not want to bother looking when I cross the road and, if I were talking to you, I'd probably point downwards to indicate their negative aspect. Sadly, there's very little going on in the middle.

I like the middle. It's the nice squishy inoffensive bit which is classic Dotcountry. However, the world has currently decided that I am not allowed to occupy such hallowed ground and as such I am quite a knotted up and stressed little bunny at the moment. I lurch from happiness to unhappiness without much respite and I am therefore fairly desperate to cling onto anything which makes me feel nice and average. All unnecessary sources of stress need to be vanquished.

This is where we come to this blog. I've started to feel a bit like it owns me. Every day I wake up and think, "oh god, I need to put something on my blog" rather than enjoying it. Every day I look at the stats and wonder, "what can I do to get more hits tomorrow?" These are the two single worst reasons for doing a blog which is basically supposed to be fun for me and hopefully fun for you to read as well.

In days of old when I was bold (and a TOTAL self-sabotaging cretin), I would just delete the whole thing in a fit of madness. Luckily, I'm not the kind of man to make the same mistake four or five fucking times. However, I am going to try and only update for the forseeable future when I really want to, rather than trying to do it every day. So that's the reason why the pace is slowing down, and this is the post I will link you to when you tweet or email me to ask why I've not updated the site for 18 hours or suchlike. And as you read it I will probably be crying and thinking about blocking you.

Right? Good.

3 comments:

Fran said...

I think this is an excellent idea. As you very well know I recently got burnt out from blogging and I already feel soooo much more positive about it and itching to get going again. Don't delete - just walk away for a bit and let it pass...because it will.

Blogging is something you should love (and especially because you are mightily good at it). We will love you when you are ready to give us lovely information and in the meantime we can exchange jokes on twitter....or convince me to actually go to the pub quiz (and no I can't go tomorrow - I'll be in a frenzy of stress about packing last minute for the move on Friday!)

Massive hugs!x

Chris O said...

Can't add anything to that except 'here here'...

:)

Chopper said...

What Fran said.

If nothing else it will make me feel a whole lot better about the relative snails pace I maintain on my own blog.

Take care of yourself, that's what's important.

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